The feeling of losing myself has been a pivotal experience of motherhood. I have lost myself in the love, the wonder and the daily grind of bringing children into the world and making a family.
So consuming is the experience of motherhood that I didn’t even know I had lost myself. It wasn’t until my children found their sense of self outside of me, that I knew I was floating without an anchor to my identity.
I knew that I was the not the same person that had started out on this journey 15 years ago. She is a memory, an echo of me.
As I float in the space between knowing who I was, and finding out who I am, I feel a great sense of anticipation.
Lisa is participating in the Advanced Fitness Mind and Body Transformation program, and finding herself to be stronger and more determined than she knew.
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What a lovely way to look at the journey of motherhood! I admire the sense of anticipation and possibility you express. Sometimes it’s hard to think they way when you’re mired in dirty diapers and legos but I appreciate the reminder! Visiting from #mummyandus
I agree that the daily grind of parenting young kids doesn’t always lend itself to feeling optimistic about losing ourselves!!There were times during the early years that I felt completely lost; torn between the desire to have an identity outside of Mummy and guilty for feeling that being Mummy wasn’t enough!I wish I had discovered blogging then, as I know that the reflection that is prompted through my writing has provided amazing clarity of purpose for me now.Thanks for your lovely comment Jennifer.
what a wonderful way to put it. I realised when Adam started school that I had lost part of me, but through my writing I am finding out more of who I am and who I want to be. Great post, thanks for sharing #mummyandus
You sound like you are entering a new era and have even more to learn about yourself. I bet motherhood has brought you some amazing qualities that the previous you had bubbling under the surface. I lovely way to look at things xx #mummyandus
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Beautiful quote Lisa. We definitely evolve & change over time especially when we become mothers. Thanks so much for sharing with #candidcuddles x
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Thanks Becky, it’s always a pleasure to link up with #candidcuddles
I think everyone has a different view of themselves after motherhood. For me it saved me..I found a better version of myself and someone worthy of living …a reason. #candidcuddles
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I totally hear you there Trista, for me being a Mum has given me purpose, and helped me to stand strong for what I believe in. But the experience of being a Mum is changing for me as my boys move towards independence. This has left me with that feeling of space, no longer needed as a full time Mum, but changed by the experience of motherhood, reflecting on what next…
How exciting Lisa. It is disconcerting to find that we have lost ourselves but then there are the possibilities!! Motherhood changes us so much and even though we can feel lost or deskilled by it, the reality is that it teaches us so much and we acquire massive life skills an a practical and emotional sense. Kirsten
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I feel deeply changed by the experience of nurturing my children, and although I struggle with the thought of moving on to the next stage of their independence, I also feel excited by the doors that are opening as a result of this new found growth!